Justin Finch-Fletchley

Ah...

2004-07-15T16:00:35Z

It is great to be back in my body. Being Luna Lovegood was not fun in the least. I love having my actual body back with my curves and my bits and well...I don't know how women deal with it in all honesty! I just volenteered to pose for Pufferfish. I don't know who the female model will be but...hmmm. Hopefully I won't get nervous.

Oy...I need to find Su. Hopefully I won't have the urge to run and hide. Am I afraid of committment or something? Or her? I'm not quite sure in all honesty. I got to grit my teeth and just deal with it. That is what I have to do!

Harry Post

2004-07-03T21:02:34Z

I think my “prank” has worn off—or at least, has mostly worn off. I’m worried I might have seemed a little barking there for a few days! Well, now I’m back to normal, and I know I’m not Harry Potter! Good thing, too, because he’s evil now!

It’s a really nice day out, too. I woke up after everyone else was stirring and did my best to ignore Ernie, Zacharias, Longbottom and Finnegan who were dressing. Finnegan should really mind himself in the bath. In fact, I think it would be a lot better if everyone who turned into a girl would use the correct bath for their current gender. It’s really embarrassing for the rest of us, you know.

I heard Weasley muttering something threatening about Potter. I hope Potter watches his back. I think Weasley may be a bit off his rocker right now. It would be a pity if anything happened to the FAMOUS BOY WHO LIVED after all!

I also heard that Ginny Weasley sliced up Harry Potter’s sheets. Now just why would she do that? I hope he didn’t provoke her. He replaced the sheets with green—that proves he’s evil! That’s Slytherin’s colours, you know.

~~I wonder if anyone’s believing this…~~

I feel bad for Malfoy. It was really odd. And upsetting. So I'm not going to follow that thought.

Also, I know Hermione thinks I’m being blasé about all this, but I’m tired of being told off by Ron and Pansy. No way I’m just going to accept it if when they go back to being normal. It really…

But right now. I don't really care. The whole world can be mad at me, but look! Half the world isn't because I'm Justin Finch-Fletchley! So... is it any wonder I don't really want to return to being Harry?

I did look for Crookshanks, though. I couldn’t find him anywhere in the boys’ dorm. I don’t know if Ron has him; if he does, I don’t know where he put him. I don’t know why I’m even bothering to look for him since Hermione obviously is angry at me and won’t appreciate it anyways.

And just why did Ginny cut up my sheets? I wonder if Malfoy did something to her in my body. I guess I can count her on the “I Hate Harry Potter” list, too. I wonder what else he has planned. Even though I’m enjoying being Justin… it won’t last, so I’m worried about my body. Maybe if he’s really awful everyone will just attribute it to the April Fool’s madness… Hermione seems to think the effects are going to be long lasting… I'm not going to think about that, either. I just want to enjoy my Saturday as a Hufflepuff.

Only…

WHAT DID MALFOY DO TO GINNY?

~~Merlin… What are these magazines under Justin’s bed?!?~~

Being JFF

2004-07-02T23:50:12Z

You know... I'm actually getting used to this, aside from that weird occurence in the showers (which after a full night's sleep I had nearly forgotten about). At first people were looking at me queerly, but I've realised that if I don't say much, no one will notice me at all. They don't stare, and they don't gossip or point at me behind my back. And... I can sleep all night. No headaches or nightmares! ~~I had forgotten what it was even like to not have that constant niggling pain or feel exhausted.~~ Also, I can see, and my hair is controllable (I brush it, and it lies down!). I'm so...normal.

~~If I just keep trying to act like this, then maybe everyone will stop thinking I'm insane. Everyone else may be insane, but I'm not. I wish I had paid more attention to Justin before.~~

Granted, Ernie was entirely right. Hufflepuffs do get the short end of the stick (no one seems to ever take them seriously ~~including myself~~), but I can only imagine everything is temporary, so it's sort of like taking a vacation.

I am still furious about Ron and Pansy... And I think Luna is furious at me for not wanting to run away with Malfoy's body. And God knows what he's going to do to mine... I hope Luna was only joking about shaving him. Where exactly did she shave him anyways? Not like I can ask her right now; I can only imagine she's still put out with me. I don't really get why she doesn't get it either. Girls.

I'm still not sure about my classes, though. I've tried following Ernie and Zacharias around, but sometimes they get lost in the crowds. I think I've figured out a few periods, however, so that's a start. ~~It's weird that Zacharias isn't a total prat to me! Ernie's breasts are still very troublesome, though.~~

And all I really have to do is make sure it's fed, cleaned and rested

WHY ME?!

2004-07-01T19:30:11Z

Oh isn't it really just a bloody wonderful day? My ~~now ex- again~~ best friend and ~~now ex-~~girlfriend must have had a lovely time up in the ASTRONOMY TOWER! Well, good luck to you both. I hope Hermione turns him into a flamingo.

I have given up on trying to convince people of my identity. They all just think I'm insane.

But even still, I must warn you all!

HARRY POTTER IS EVIL! STAY AWAY FROM HIM!

RONALD WEASLEY!

2004-07-01T01:03:57Z

RON WEASLEY. IF YOU GO ANYWHERE NEAR THE ASTRONOMY TOWER WITH PANSY I WILL HATE YOU FOREVER. I'M NOT KIDDING.

Is this permanent? Has anyone seen... Harry Potter around?

justinfsquared @ 2004-06-30T15:38:00

2004-06-30T19:39:09Z

I woke up this morning to screaming. I thought it was my own. It was. How do I describe it? I thought it was a nightmare, so I just rolled over to get in a few more minutes when Seamus started screaming, too.

Only... he was a girl.

So... I thought maybe I really had gone mad, and I went down to the bath to splash water on my face.

Justin Finch-Fletchley.

That was me. Oh... Merlin. WHO IS ME?!??! WHO!??? WHO IS IN MY BODY?

And then I got in trouble in all my classes, because apparently I'm not supposed to be there. I don't know what my schedule is even.

WHO THE BLOODY HELL IS ME?!?!?

Pufferfish?

2004-06-27T16:16:47Z

I pondered going to PUFFERFISH for I don't think anyone should be judged on something they just are. But I knew I would feel a little weird. I'm most definately straight and I wondered how many straight people would be there.

I wish good luck to those involved though. I do support you whether I end up going to meetings or not. Now, having said that, I climb back into my potions homework.

justinfsquared @ 2004-06-13T11:58:00

2004-06-13T16:07:10Z

Ug...I haven't updated this thing in a while. I reckon I got rather into studying for N.E.W.Ts. I'm almost as bad as any Ravenclaw these last few weeks. I forgot about Valentine's Day and ug...well, I needed a break now.

I should have gotten Su something but I've sort have been avoiding her. I'm not sure why, maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe it is about commitment? I'm just...almost scared of her. If Zack can commit and he's younger than me, I should too!

She's probably moved on by now, knowing my luck...

Wow!

2004-05-21T16:04:34Z

Hufflepuff beat Gryffindor...again! It was like the spirit of Cedric was with us! See, Zacharias, Ernie, you had nothing to bloody worry about!

I think part of the reason Hufflepuff won was due to the fact Harry wasn't present. What happened, Harry, if you don't mind me asking?

Ug...

2004-05-18T19:43:34Z

I've been drowning in homework! I barely got enough time to catch Quidditch. What a game even though I think that Slytherin should be more careful where they hit the bludgers. Gee...it was almost as if they were trying to kill someone. Well, knowing Slytherin, it probably wasn't too far off.

The game with Hufflepuff vs Gryffindor is tomorrow. That should be exciting. ~~I do hope Zacharias calms down though.~~ I'll be cheering my house on!

The ball

2004-05-03T22:01:22Z

Well, the ball was lovely despite me having a cold. I got a real bad one right before I came back. Muggle medicine just doesn't compare. I just got up and working up the energy to go to Madam Pomfrey's.

Su looked gorgeous and the journal was nice too! I just got to think of what to write in it.

Su was lovely during the ball but she is very aggressive! I couldn't help but feel whipped and I found that most of me doesn't care.

Still not sure if I want to persue a relationship.

Christmas

2004-04-29T05:21:20Z

Well, Christmas wasn't anything special. We opened gifts. Everyone liked the gifts I gave them. I got the usual things...stuff that probably most muggle boys my age would like but I can't use any of it because of Hogwarts.

Right in the middle of opening presents, dad got called in. Then my grandparents got a flat and turned back. So it was just mum, Zack, and me. We played a few card games and watched a movie and went to church and had Christmas dinner with a lot of leftovers. Then, mum went to bed early. I could finally talk with Zack.

Well, I think the long talk did us some good. I know Zack doesn't hate me and we both realized where we're headed in life are both very different. I think he sort of understood really about my world and weren't blocking it out like mum and dad do. We agreed to go to the movies tomorrow. ~~I can buy the gift for Su then~~.

Home

2004-04-24T20:21:00Z

I wanted to stay for Christmas like Dumbledore suggested but mum and dad insisted I come home for break. I told them that it would be safer at Hogwarts but mum wrote back in a huffy letter, "They told me it would be safe and then you got petrified!" I guess I couldn't argue with that. It's not like they would understand anyway. When I got off the train, mum was there to pick me up and she asked a lot of questions. She was concerned but I just said it was wizard issues so everything should be okay, which it will. I just half expected a death eater to leap out of the bushes and attack me. Not like I'm an actual target but you know what I mean. I'm sure I could have defended myself, thanks to Harry and DADA.

That evening, it was the big talk with my family over dinner. Zack was talking all about his girlfriend, Ellie and wanted to know more about my date to the ball. This talk was interrupted by dad asking me what I planned to do. He tried once again to convince me to go to Oxford. I told him rather awkwardly that I would be intergrated into wizard society. Then before mum would go off on a tirade, I told her I would still visit. I then told dad what I planned to do.

"A wizard doctor," I told him, "You in the wizard world."

After that, he seemed to be rather interested in his potatos. I think my parents don't know what to do if their plans break.

After a dead silence, I spoke up, "Zack can go to Oxford and become a doctor!" It was supposed to inspire hope. Apparantly that was the wrong thing to say. Zack looked up from his plate and looked rather upset with me, "What if I don't want to be a doctor or go to Oxford?! What if I just want to play football or become something else...like a teacher or something like that?!"
Mum looked at me and rubbed her head, "Zack's grades aren't the best they could be..." Zack glared at mum and asked to be excused which was granted. During the dead silence when I turned to finish my dinner, I thought about it and realized that Zack probably has a lot more pressure on him now and it was probably because of me, indirectly anyway. I don't feel the pressure he does because my parents don't know what's going on with me much anyway nor do they understand it. The pressure on myself is what I put there not really them. They feel so distant even when I'm sitting right next to them.

After dinner, my parents were joined with the Hathaways. They were going to go to the theatre. With them, was an old friend from primary school; Scott. I hadn't seen him in a long time but not that much had changed. He was still the somewhat scared kid who was afraid if he got a speck of dirt on him, probably the result of an overbearing mother. Mrs. Hathaway always unnerved me as well. A little neurotic. While our parents went off for an evening, we watched tele. Meanwhile, Zack stayed up in his room. I meant to go and talk to him, but Scott was the guest and I know mum would be upset if I wasn't a good host. When the evening drew to a close, Scott and I decided to do some last minute shopping the next day.

Scott had gotten a 17th birthday gift of a new car so we cruised a bit. We talked about school. Of course, I couldn't say too much about my school. That would violate quite a few laws. I was quite creative though! At the mall, I picked up a book of contemporary poetry for mum, a Beach Boys CD for dad, and another CD for Zack. Zack had been into rap for a while now. I could never understand why. It was about a bunch of people talking about slappin' their ho's and killing people. Oh well, I hope Zack likes it.

When I got back from the mall and said good-bye to Scott, I decided to see if Zack was around to maybe play a game of chess or video games. He probably wouldn't like chess. Wizard chess is so much better. However, when I got upstairs, Zack was gone; probably out with friends.

So, this is why I'm writing here, waiting for Zack to return. We need some brotherly time...it's long overdue.

Whoa...

2004-04-23T17:46:25Z

Well, it looks like I have a date to the ball; the stunningly gorgeous Su Li! And I wasn't expecting it to happy either! I was ready to go by myself. I guess mum was right in saying you find what you're looking for where you least expect it.

Okay, off to reread that potions essay. I will get higher than average!

The ball

2004-04-23T03:46:53Z

Well, I finally decided to get one of these things. I don't know what took me so long. It seems like everyone has a journal now.

Anyway, first thing to bring up would be the matter of the ball. I am dateless as of now. I've decided not to let that get to me. I'll go and I'll hang out with Ernie and Hannah and Susan and Zacharias ~~even though Zacharias can be rather arrogant~~. If I happen to find a date between now and then, kudos to me!

I just got a letter from my brother today. Apparantly he has a girlfriend. What luck! I'm seventeen and haven't even kissed a girl not to mention I go to a coed school. Zack's 14 and goes to an all boys school. It was good to hear from him nonetheless. Sometimes I feel like I'm disconnected from my family. I love them to death but they feel worlds away.

My grades aren't going so good at the moment. My Defense Against the Dark Arts grade is my highest at the moment. ~~That is, thanks to Harry for that~~. Herbology is up there as is Charms. My potions and transfiguration grades are rather low. I worked so hard on both essays for those classes and my grades aren't good enough. In order to become a healer, they need to be better.

Well, that is all for now. I suppose, I will close up.